• mary magdalene and jesus christ indeed had a romantic and sexual relationship. i don't think that i have the right to expound and prove this one and the claims in the book for that matter. you better check the book because Licauco(the author) have tons of credible sources so i wasn't brave enough to scream "you bastard, you're lying!!die and go to hell!!" my reaction:so what. i don't really get the point if Christ had a girlfriend, let it be so. does having a girlfriend degrade his "divinity"?and, if you had a bf/gf, would you hate yourself?!would you stop having faith in yourself because you are in love?!! the point here is that christ, as somebody spiritually divine and superior, should possess things far greater than us, the "ordinary" sinners. but heck, a girlfriend?everybody has girlfriends, even girls have girlfriends.that is where the contradiction begins.wow, im losing my intelligence(!!)sleepiness is a disease of thinking...
• the bible was edited and expurgated for the interests of the Catholic (or Christian)church. this is your greatest religious nightmare(if you understand it). what if even the basis of your faith, the supposed collection of the holy words of God, is impure, a sanctity manipulated and raped by a group of spiritually pervert, socially biased individuals? will all your faith be crumbled because the foundations are nothing but fallacies?...hey that's an overstatement! actually, Licauco said that the translation of the bible to the then modern languages (like Latin from greek,hebrew,bedouin or something) was altered and not totally faithful to the meaning in order to favor the teachings of the Christian church. (baruch spinoza also stated that the bible was written not to state the greatness of its god, but to attract as many followers as possible) so, whenever we read the bible, we will never know if what we are reading are actually true or just clever manipulations.hey, im being biased!!
• jesus christ is a reincarnation of past biblical figures like Adam, Abraham, Isaac,etc. this is one of the "so what" topics raised in the book. i don't get it why people make a big deal out of the petty imperfections of Christ, so what if he has flaws, what counts in the end is whether we believe amidst everything or not(hey, i don't go to church...regularly.wahahah) if you want this thing to be elaborated, don't count on me to explain to you verbatim because i am too sleepy for such a tedious, tedious task.
• jesus christ is copied from the gos of other ancient religions. this is the most "shocking" claim of the book.well, it was actually taken from a research of this two british dudes i didn't bother knowing. according to this *wapoosh* claim, the concept of jesus christ is not original, but merely a copy. they point out that there are striking similarities among jesus, osiris from egypt,dionysius from what-was-that, mithras from my-mind-is-dead and adonis from persia. even if i was not able to elaborate everything, i am still presenting this things according to fact and not on my own interests.(this book was borrowed from me my carmela just 8 hours ago)the similarities?they were born on dec 25, had a mortal mother, son of god, rose from the dead on the 3rd day to ascend into heaven, comemorated by a feast of bread and wine and other things that i have unconsciously forgotten.shocking isn't it.i think they are true, the issue here is our interpretations on such facts?what will the image of christ become?what is the stand of our faith?shall we still believe or be the greatest of skeptics because we have been fooled for almost 2000 years?blablabla.take me seriously,please
• what is the bullet for?those are the only things i can remember!!

iii.and the point is?

the point, my dear blog readers is: (the hushed, unbiased version, for religious fanatics) are these the kind of facts that can crumble our very beliefs?

(the morbid version, the "realest" "truest" thing i could say about this matter) the fact that these kinds of claims surfaced is already enough for us to doubt the credibility of the Catholic Church.

elaboration of a sleepy-head: i am not opposing the concept of the existence of god; i believe in god, no matter what. but, this god is not the god the Catholic church has been preaching, a punishing, jealous, strict, condemning god.but a great being beyond comprehension, an entity that signalled the beginning of the existence of everything, a god full of love and compassion(oohh religiously cheesy). although some claim that god is a force(plato) or the first motion, or a being oblivious due to his blissful perfection(aristotle), i put faith in him. people, this is one of the few things i fail to explain but i incessantly value. just because some things are unexplainable doesn't mean they are not true. just because some things are not yet proven doesn't mean they are false. that is basically my belief, that explanation from the human thought is not the core basis for the authenticity of something. man has tried to explain the concept of god with so many complexities and technicalities, terminologies and jargon, but these were just made to cover up the fact that the human mind is not capable of understanding his being. we are only capable of admiring him, or believeing him. i don't know, honestly. i have yet to discover everything. i feel i still lack the wisdom to satisfy myself with an answer. i don't know. i don't know.or perhaps, i'm just sleepy..what, really?i have some answers, but shit, im sleepy.

iii.go on and curse me

if you think i am a demonic teenage thinker, i pity you. because you have closed your mind in the false belief that what you have now is the truth. is your truth the universal truth, that is my question. why did you close your mind and satisfy yourself with those beliefs?was it because you are so sure of them, was it because you have analyzed them and found them without flaws? or was it because you don't want to bother yourself with doubting and thinking, because you prefer the convenience of lying on the comforts of your religion while the whole world is thinking? was it because you find considering other beliefs inconvenient? was it because you are afraid that what you believe in may be challenged?was it because you feel that your faith is too weak that even the mildest blow might crumble it? was it because you don't want to be different? was it because you stick to that faith because most people are sticking up to that to?was it because of opposition?was it because you are sure?or, was it because you don't bother, because you don't value your belief enough for you to seek the truth behind it?

if you have the most confident answers to all of those questions, with accompanying justifications based on your analytical thinking, critique and intellectual judgment, and when you have considered every aspect of our life, every field of the universal plane and every branch of human knowledge and thinking in the thorough and systematic formulation of your answers, take a good breath and curse me.

P.S.

sorry for the typos, i am too lazy and sleepy to edit them. and, before you make any conclusions i suggest(not compel) that you buy the book. uii endorsement.you have the will.

"When thinking begins with a conclusion, thinking stops."-Jidda Krishnamurti

iii. i'm adding something

i cannot find the right words to start this chapter. i'm supposed to finish this post with the *wattakowt* quotation of an indian philosopher you never bothered knowing, j.krishnamurti. if you feel so dumb because you don't know him/her, don't because i don't know him/her either, heck i don't even know if he/she is a guy or a girl, i am stupid.what is stupid?i believe i had already answered that. what is the basis of stupidity anyway?because you cannot measure up to what is expected of you by society, then you are stupid? because you failed, then you are stupid?because you lost everything, then you are stupid? stupid is a word that hushes down the referrence to our imperfection. i am stupid because i am too imperfect to choose to be not stupid. i f i am perfect then i could have been capable of isolating myself from the concept of stupidity. but i am imperfect, then i have the right to be stupid, everybody is imperfect, and they don't have the right to call me stupid.calling me stupid will single me out as the imperfect one, which is not correct because evrybody is imperfect, that is in general. but i can be the stupid one of the situation, perhaps because i chose to be imperfect during the occurence of this specific situation. then i can be referred to as the "stupid one of the situation"more appropriately than stupid alone because it is a politically correct way of calling me.it follows every principle of stupidity i have mentioned.i'm so stupid to talk. about stupidity

ISANG ANEKDOTANG KAPUPULUTAN NG ARAL NG MGA KABATAAN

Si dodi damulag at si babi baboy

dodi: babi, this is the alphabet...A..B.. babi, recite the alphabet.

babi: oink, oink.

dodi: babi, when i ask what your name is, say "my name is chika babi". what is your name?

babi: oink, oink.

dodi: babi, when i say hi you say hello, when i say hello you say hi. hi!

babi:oink, oink.

dodi: hello!

babi:oink, oink.

dodi: babi, william harvey discovered the circulation of blood. babi, who discovered the circulation of blood?

babi:oin, oink.

dodi: babi, the value of i is the square root of negative one. babi, what is the value of i?

babi:oink, oink.

dodi: leche kang baboy ka. akala ko kaya kitang turuan. gusto lang naman kitang gisingin sa kamangmangan ng kahayupan mo. binigyan kita ng dunong para lumaya ka sa kahangalan ng kababuyan mong iyan. ngayon, kung ayaw mong makinig o nakikinig ka pero ayaw mo lang intindihin dahil naniniwala ka na ang baboy ay baboy lang, ngumunguya, lumalamon at tumatae buong buhay, pwes, wala akong magagawa, "magpakababoy ka na lang".

mga bata, ang aral ng kwento ay:

hindi mo pwedeng mabigyan ng edukasyon ang isang baboy na nagpapakababoy.(you can never educate a pig that acts like a pig)

ako ang gumawa niyan, do not use without permission from the author.copyright protected (sa utak).

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pag sumasakay ka pala ng jeep sa manila, makikita mo yung union ng libo-libong diversities. nasa isa kang melting pot ng mga buhay, mga luha, mga tawa, mga smirk, mga muta, mga pawis at kung ano-ano pang symbolic na bagay. sabi nila peligroso sa metro manila, statistically, oo. pero beyond sa thought na sasaksakin ka na lang bigla sa leeg or hahablutin yung cellphone mo, maappreciate mo yung reality of Philippine life kasi nasa harap mo lang. nandun ka mismo sa battlefront, nakiki-agawan ng taxi, nakikisiksikan sa jeep, magdadalawang isip kung magbibigay ng limos o hindi, makikipagpatintero sa mga potential hoodlums. pero xet, babalik na ako sa bundok.ok lang yan, isang taon na lang naman eh.

• lagi kami noong nakatambay sa grandstand. dito yung parang training grounds ng high school students sa kama sutra. although wala naman talagang actual copulation na nangyayari sa colossal structure na ito, tanga ka kung hindi mo mahahalatang 95% ng tao sa paligid mo ay in heat. mahangin kasi dito, april na noon kaya maalingasaw ang hangin. basta, depressing, sa harap ng grandstand, yung oval na isang vast stretch ng green, parang yung gusto mong landing-an kung magpapakamatay ka na.
• pumunta kami sa gaisano mall ni kubakubs at bonayski. ewan ko ba kung anong tumor na naman ang tumubo sa utak ni kubakubs at may ka eyeball pala na textmate nya. lalapit na lang ay para siyang isang non-immunized infant na ilulublob sa batya ng germs. anyway pagkatapos ng isang libong encouragements, nakalapit na rin. kawawa naman si kubakubs walang diskarte sa mga labidabs, pano na siya sa manila eh ang mga babae ata dun ay liberated at flirtatious to the nth degree. baka mas aggressive pa sa kanya yung "maria clara" type. at yun nga, nalugi siya sa pinsan ni ms.txtmate na isa palang greedy arcader dahil kaya niyang umubos ng 20 token sa isang oras. kasi naman kunyari pang charitable hindi nga makalibre ng mentos sa canteen. at si bonayski naman *whoosh* ganun pa rin pero surprisingly tolerable! ang takaw niya, langhya.
• bakit kaya may mga kinse anyos na lasinggero?pumunta kami kina bionika para sa "despedida kuno" party niya. una, bowriing, mga 4th year kasi at 1st year college ang nandun eh, debut kasi ni ate niya. si siyokoy naman namemeligrong pumutok ang bituka niya kasi andaming kinuhang pagkain, matakaw.kaya yun, uminom na lang ako ng beer, hanggang sa pumitik na lang yung consciousness ko na technically, lasing na talaga ako matapos ang apat na bote ng san mig light. kaya ayun, naglow ang mukha ko sa pagka red.

iv.lintek na existential plane

bakit ba ako badtrip? ang iniisip ko ay tadtarin ito ng mga pilosopiya ko sa mundo. pero xet kahit ano na namang basura ang nilalagay ko. may sumagi na naman kasi sa isip ko eh.

masyado kasing overwhelming. kahapon kasi pumapasok ako sa school tapos makikita ko sila lagi sa room nila na nasa may gate lang. pero ngayon, nagkalat na sila sa pilipinas, college na, matatanda na, at next year pwede na silang bumoto. kung noon nakakatambay pa ako sa bahay nila, ngayon hindi ko na alam kung saang lupalop na sila ng mundo, maliban na lang kay kubakubs na madaling madetect. si bionika, hindi nagttxt, si siyokoy bawal, si kubakubs, taghirap na kaya wala nang pambili ng load!!! hindi ko alam kung nalulungkot ako o naiinggit lang. sana hindi ako naiinggit, kasi kung inggit lang ito ibig sabihin ang babaw ng pagtingin ko sa bagay na ito, which is absolutely not the case. ewan ko, kung kailan kasi nakahanap na ako ng tropa dun pa aalis.pakxet sa nakaimbento ng orasan. pakxet sa kanila, pakxet sakin at pakxet sa buong mundo, magpakxetan tayong lahaaaat!!!

iii.magbibigti na ang mundo

ok lang sana kung medyo masipag sila magtxt, pero wala na atang mas tamad pa sa kanila sa pagpipindutan. sabi na nga ba at ito ang iniisip ng subconscious ko, ito lang kasi naiisip kong ilagay. kasi naman hindi ako nakalabas ng condo(xet, apartment pala!!) kaya wala masyadong nagpenetrate sa utak ko. marami akong naiisip ngayon kaya lang hindi ko sila mahugot dahil saturated na masyado ulo ko sa kakaisip ng kahit na anong pwedeng icomprehend. kasi naman nung friday night pa lang ako nagsimula magblog, pero wowowee nakasampu na akong post. ganito talaga pag may sarili kang computer at ignorante ka masyado sa teknolohiya. ayon lang, sana hindi ako masyado mag-isip kasi nawawalan na ako ng focus. gusto ko talaga mag halo-halo.leche kasi ang mundo.amen.

nag txt saken si amor nung thursday habang nakatunganga ako sa review center namin sa katipunan. ay wow disruption, sabi ko, enjoy na enjoy pa naman ako sa statistics and probability lalo na sa permutation at combination! Tipong mapapa exclamation mark ako lagi nang g!a!n!i!t!o! a!n!g! s!a!y!a! sa mga nakalimot na sa kanilang advance algebra o elementary pa lang, yung (!) ay nangangahulugan ng factorial. para mas masaya, bigyan natin ng value yung mga letter! wag na lang kaya ang haba pa nun. at ano na naman kaya ang nais kong ihambulat sa blog na ito, tungkol sa.....4th year life!!ang lalim!!hwoowww!!

• kasi, hindi talaga ako magandang ehemplo! sabi ni mam, ni mam, ni sir, ni mam, usually kapag matalino ka, ikaw yung ideal student. kaya, para macomplement yung talino mo, mas maganda (o "Mas perfect") kung masunurin ka, matapat, mabait, mapagbigay, mapagpatawad, mapagkawanggawa, maawain at kung anu anu pang kabanalan. aaminin ko saksakan ako ng imperpeksyon at hindi sa pagmamayabang, may utak ako pero, huwaat?! model student?! kung sarili ko nga hindi ko mapasunod sila pa kaya?! pero kung may isang bagay akong maipagmamalaki (at claim para maging model student) iyon ay hinding hindi ako nag pretend to be somebody i am not. hindi ako umasta na parang tama ako lagi, na wala akong baho, wala akong flaw, in short, wala akong nilokong tao.kaya mam, sir, mam, mam, mam, kapag may award na model student ibigay niyo na lang saken.wahahaha.
• naniniwala ako sa Diyos eh. marami akong kaibigan na atheist na, hayskul pa lang. sila yung tipong nasa same plane of thinking tulad ko. sa tuwing may debate on the existence of God, sinusubukan kong kumampi sa non believer kong friends at minsan dun sa mga holier than thou followers. all the time, napapatigil yung mga believers kapag ako yung nagrereason out na God does not exist. ako man ay convinced, aba'y nabasa ko na ata ang angels and demons at da vinci code by heart. pero, sa kaibuturan ng puso ko (meron ako nyan!) at kaluluwa(meron din ako nito!), alam ko na may Diyos talaga at ,oo, hindi ko siya maipaliwanag. pero hindi lahat ng hindi maipaliwanag hindi totoo. basta, mahaba yung discussion ko rito pwede wag ko na i expound?!heehehe.
• may auto-indifferent button ako eh. kapag nararamdaman kong masyadong chaotic ang paligid ko at may mga taong gumagawa ng actions na futile at useless, nagiging passive ako. lalo na kung nasa class ko, sorry ha pero wala akong maestablish na connection sa classmates ko.siguro mga anim lang out of 39. yung iba mga casual-casual na jokes na lang o ano pang ka ewanan.kaya, kahit magsaksakan na sila o anu't anu pa man, nakatitig lang ako at nakikinig sa isang invisible na iPod.
• kaya ko magpakamanhid. kahit tinutusok na ako, nilalacerate, puncture at iba pa, minsan hindi man lang ako nag "ouch!" kasi parang useless lang. ano ngayon kung nasaktan ako?kapag sumigaw ba ako maalis na? mas maganda kung hihintayin ko na lang mawala yung sakit kaysa magooouch pa ako. yan yung simplified principles ko sa buhay, na not all of our pains can be resolved by having other people know them. minsan, or often, we possess the power of self-curing.basta, nagigi akong manhid.yun lang.

iii.ambisyon ni sir

siguro naman next year section 1 pa rin ako. sige na nga sigurado na yun dahil alam naming walang matatagal sa special science class ng school. pero ohmaygudnes gaaaad, hindi na ako section one. wala na sa dati naming class ang section 1!!kasi, kami ay, tan-ta-na-na-na-na,, IV-Einstein!Wowowee! ewan ko kung ano na namang kaeklatan ito ni principal. akala niya siguro, ang section naming ay para lang pagpinta sa mga building, yung maraming lumot, lagyan ng maraming pinta. pero einstein? can we even measure up to such distinction? ilan lang siguro kami nung third year na alam ang theory of relativity (E=mc squared!pano ba ang exponent?!) where e=energy, m=mass and c=speed of light. abat sinabi talaga. at ilan lang ba sa amin ang may alam na pinanganak si einstein sa Germany?!at nag migrate na lang sa tate! at ngayon, ang section 1 ay yung dati na section 2, actually wala ako complaints diyan eh kasi i believe in the ideals of the principal regarding student equality. pero sana malaman niya na he can't iron out everything. kung gusto niya i even lahat ng levels, para na rin niyang dinedeprive ang intellectual awakenings, intellectual growth kasi ano na lang iisipin ng students "xete pare kahit siguro kainin ko na utak ko ngayon ok lang kasi hindi papayag ang principal na may mas matalino kay kahit sino diyan" di ba posible? we are being stripped off of identity, not of glory. para saan pa at tinatambakan kami ng subject kung gusto niyang ipamukha sa lahat na on every aspect pare-parehas lang ang bawat student. ok lang yung equality, honestly. pero sana wala na rin kaming electives, yun ang point.hehehehe.

iv.masindak ka sa enrollment

saan ka bang school makakakita ng enrollment form na parang autograph ng mga grade six na gagraduate??TABACO NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL,ALBAY.

what are your special talents?

---everything about me is special! Because I am a special child, I am autistic leche ka.

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nung elementary ako ang taba ko. parang yung mga batang kina cast sa role ng mga chikiting na anak ng isang master chef/pabayang ina/milyonaryang caterer. hindi naman sa obese o yung sing tindi ng american model na si Teighlor na saturated na masyado ang katawan sa tabatabatubs, pero yun nga, mataba ako. yung tipong pag nakadaan ka sa isang kumpol ng walang modong bubwit eh tatawagin ka na lang na "tabatchoy!!tabatchoy!!wahahaha ang saya na ng buhay ko dahil tinawag kitang tabatchoy!!". pero, sus, ako maapektuhan nun, wla lang. kasi hindi naman yun ang topic ng blog ko eh, tungkol ito kay junichiro koizumi, hindi yung japanese pm, codename lang to kasi ito yung unang sumagi sa aking isip.

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