super psycho(n.) an immensely disturbed individual who is obsessed with ranting, whining, and blabbering about his life. severely unstable and emotionally undefined, a super psycho should always be dealt with at a distance greater than 50 feet and, with some few doses of aspirin.
WHO THE HELL IS SUPER PSYCHO?
Name:Empermeen Mallawee
Nickname:Elp, Elf, Elfer, Elper, Emper, Empermeen, Buknoy, Boknoy, Bok, Mallawee
Age: I am 15. And I mean it.
Address: Honestly?
Favorite Color: Green, Orange
Favorite Food: Rodic's Jumbosilog
Motto in Life: Abolish our selves.
Favorite High School Subject: Biology
Most Hated High School Subject: Values Education
Most Unforgettable Experience: When I abolished my self.
Most Embarrassing Experience: When I abolished my self.
Who is your Crush: My self.
Do you think autograph questions are dumb?: Super.
So why are you answering this?: Why do you care.
Ambition in Life: To be a Super star.
What is Love: Love is what you say when 'horny' doesn't sound right.
If you were a deodorant scent, what would you be?: Natural Scent.
Your film biopic's title would be: E-pal
One word that best describes you: Magnificent.
What can you say about PGMA?: She has a mole on her face.
How about Josepha Estrada?:His stomach is really big.
How about Angel Locsin?:Her face looks too small.
Your alter ego's name is: Kokey
Dedication: World Peace.
Any Last Words?: Rrrawwrr.I'M EVERYWHERE!
We're Just Friends...ter
Yahoo Me, Yahoo You
GIMME MORE! MORE...BLOGS
Allan Habon
Riley Palanca
Aio Arzadon
Cess Carlos
Leya Sumbeling MY FANS SAY THAT...
A HISTORY OF PSYCHOSIS
Nickname:Elp, Elf, Elfer, Elper, Emper, Empermeen, Buknoy, Boknoy, Bok, Mallawee
Age: I am 15. And I mean it.
Address: Honestly?
Favorite Color: Green, Orange
Favorite Food: Rodic's Jumbosilog
Motto in Life: Abolish our selves.
Favorite High School Subject: Biology
Most Hated High School Subject: Values Education
Most Unforgettable Experience: When I abolished my self.
Most Embarrassing Experience: When I abolished my self.
Who is your Crush: My self.
Do you think autograph questions are dumb?: Super.
So why are you answering this?: Why do you care.
Ambition in Life: To be a Super star.
What is Love: Love is what you say when 'horny' doesn't sound right.
If you were a deodorant scent, what would you be?: Natural Scent.
Your film biopic's title would be: E-pal
One word that best describes you: Magnificent.
What can you say about PGMA?: She has a mole on her face.
How about Josepha Estrada?:His stomach is really big.
How about Angel Locsin?:Her face looks too small.
Your alter ego's name is: Kokey
Dedication: World Peace.
Any Last Words?: Rrrawwrr.
We're Just Friends...ter
Yahoo Me, Yahoo You
Allan Habon
Riley Palanca
Aio Arzadon
Cess Carlos
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Gloomier and gloomier:
when there is no reason to smile
i. looking for nirvana
i never knew that "i wandered lonely as a cloud" was all about happiness and how much joy somebody can derive from staring at stupid "golden daffodils". if looking at flowers is the greatest source of profound joy then i could have spent the last few years of my life gazing at stupid wild orchid blooms. how pessimistic. my psychopath friend told me that i am a cynic of humanity, which is partly true considering how much i hate the world (and its inhabitants) but not that i accept such (harsh?) labelling but what the fuck, if i have a choice to be happy I gladly will choose that. but the problem is, attaining unconditional happiness will always and always involve blinding your mind to certain truths. in short, you are basking yourself with the waters of deliberate ignorance, you will be denying what makes the world turn around, what keeps us grounded and all the things that make the world itself. happiness could mean fooling yourself, and i hate that.a lot.
ii. died into ashes
the first few month of school has sucked out whatever joy i got during summer break. i miss going to manila to visit friends. i miss the jeepney rides in SM North every morning. i miss waiting for jeeps going to katipunan at UP diliman. i miss jeeps, i miss the urban roads, i miss the city, i miss the summer, i miss my damn stupid friends. i miss a carefree life. here in tabaco, i don't ride jeeps whenever i go to school, i walk. there isn't any robinson's in here but a slowly deteriorating(and desperately repainted) LCC. i'm alone here.what the fuck. stupid blog post. but really, i feel like i am fighting a lonely battle of survival. things have been very very different. my friends have graduated and i am left in TNHS enduring the last year of my secondary schooling all by my lonesome. i don't have any source of silly motivation. i don't have anyone to fool around with, to sit with or to shout it during searches, seminars, symposia and all the crappy (but fun) things of high school life. 4th year should be the most memorable year but little by little i am condemning every memory. things can never be the same again.ever.
iii. where are you, nostalgia
i am being bugged by how much my environment has morphed. the air is saturated with academic greed and I (being the goody type,yes,"goody") can not even do anything except to stare, and stare and stare at the growing disorderliness of the time. why can't we just do our best, strive and let others live tehir own lives instead of being so nosy and so intervening and so insecure to other innocent souls living their lives in tranquility. very much unlike my old self two years ago, i no longer enjoy quarrels or bickerings, i want peace in everything i do because peace makes me understand things beyond their shell. so whenever you initiate selfish manipulative things in front of my face, the flow of my intellectual digestion is being raptured, and it makes me very angry. but this doesn't mean i just let the world and its inhabitant kick me like hell, i fight back, but i find retribution not by stooping down to the level of the morally inferior but i would always side into the things that i believe (by universal philosophical standards) are correct, and this makes me feel right. most of the time.
iv. zero contact
virginity (of other people) has become quite a large issue for me for the past few days. i would always ask someone i would meet or had the chance to speak if they are still virgin or not.hahahaha. see what hidden depression can do, it makes you more prone to trouble.honestly, no big deal, it just reflects how much people are inclined to issues of morality, which i have been observing lately. i miss my life. i never thought a living death can be so tiring.
meden agan.nothing in excess.
Labels: Depression, Friends, IV-Einstein
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Saturday, July 01, 2006
The Scent of June:
when we live again
i.i'm still alive
the past month sped through like a few pesos, quick and unnoticed. right now, i am in a computer cafe, this quiet space secluded from the marketing crappiness of the city. and in a sudden the flow of my thought has been raptured by the most irritating act somebody can do when another person is posting in his blog-play rock music. this has been always my problem, inconsideration from the world, lack or absence of appreciation and concern to artistry, to profound creativity and to the blossoming Filipino teenage intellect. instead of letting things be conducive enough for me to write the only blog post for the month, the shop owner preferred to surrender in her utter human stupidity and inferiority and played barren noisy songs. the world is indeed withering into horrifying superficiality, the mind is relegated and beauty is worshipped. i wish not to see the birth of a meaningless world, but before we delve into that, i should finish this post first.
ii.first day junk
its rather odd seeing and listening to kamikazee singing other songs aside from "narda".well, because my summer has been corrupted my commercial redundancy of their rather hollow songs bombarded with the most implied sexual undertones. whenever i hear kamikazee, i think "narda" or whenever i hear narda, my mental reply is "kamikazee". so it was surreal listening to them as they sing first day funk, oh, it was first day high actually. i'm too lazy to change the title above. but there wasn't really anything interesting during the first day, except of course seeing the old faces i have been staring at for the last three years of my life. today, july 1, june 8 has died down into a speck of human memory. so its stupid for me to talk about something i forgot (shop owner plays "jesus take the wheel") i melt.
iii. the anti christ is here
when i discussed something regarding the fallaciousness of the catholic to my classmates, the next day they started calling me anti christ, which is something i found amusing because anti christ is a rather colossal nickname for a very unassuming individual such as me. so i let things be so and lived my life. and, of course, i am not an anti-christ yet(?) honestly, there are still things i should know before i make up my own conclusions. i am not like other people who close their minds when somebody tells them something for the pure heck of it.pitiful.which again reminds me of my previous post cursing the church and its great great mistakes.but i did not take things too much, my system is relatively special to digest such shallow acts of human stupidity.
iv. i should not say this
yesterday was the awarding ceremony for the regional eagle quiz and the event was better than what i anticipated (a closed room, a few faces, a mass produced trophy and an envelop with some filthy cash) too bad my innate prejudice has beaten me again for this particular event and conceptual analysis(a hotel lobby, a lunch party, a special trophy, and er, an envelop with filthy cash). no hard feelings, i can not do every thing at the same time, i must sacrifice a little bit of something to let small things grow. and it is rather apalling (or amusing) to see others press their luck and blow up things into ambitious scales. humility could have been most apt. anyway, as i have always believed, excellence is greatness in consistency, not greatness in chance.that speaks of it.so i must end this blog now and kill the guilt corrupting my system because i have deliberately deprived myself of a cyber manner of intellectual expression.
meden agan.
the world always knows
Labels: Contests, Religious Beliefs
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