it was only 10 hours of sleep but now i feel a bit alive, with some pulsations in the arteries, pumping life, as if it was suspended for some time. thank God for the new day, because..it's raining.

i learned that we shouldn't waste today for a damn depressed yesterday, because our cellular memories will retain such bad experiences that it toxifies us.

our liver changes every six months, our skin changes every two weeks, our bones, every two months, and everything else that comprises us. God modifies our physical being during defined intervals, just so we feel new and forget about what once was. and it would be a form of gratitude if we as well help Him, and change what swims in our neurotic thoughts, forget about bad things, and look at life as if it's pratically new. it alwyas IS new.

i learned my thoughts can affect what lives, breathes, or exists around me. i am part of this system and i once felt bummed and down, but now it sucks so much. who cares if things didn't work out.

at least i still have a life waiting for me. i just have to undo things. then forget about all that crap.