i don't really know, but i decided to totally revamp my layout since the green thing is getting a bit boring. i like it this simple. but, [insert cuss words here], making it look simple is not even that simple. anyways, a gazillion thanks to leya and her dsl connection for helping me out at times when GO! dial up becomes a total dickhead. thanks! [disclaimer: i am not always this nice.]

it's october 23 and i feel so bum. i want to ride a rocket and zoom off to albay right this very moment. i miss my freakshow classmates [ahahaha]. my father, when he came here at Q.C, asked me to spend my sembreak in Mindoro where he is currently working. but quickly i told him it was not where i grew up, so why would i even go there? i don't even speak mangyan. [i really need an anti-racism counselling.]

wew. i feel so detached. while i sit my ass off here all day, waking up at 4 in the afternoon and sleeping at 4 in the morning, my classmates are back home in albay having conversations over burger yums and strolling at the city like our former province-brewed selves.

i really miss biking around tabaco, since the motorists there are still spiritually in touch to give a bit of patience.

i miss going to jollibee since i didn't have any other option.

i miss sleeping at the wee hours of the night while ignoring ghastly foot steps at the backyard.

i miss walking to school while listening tothe national anthem being hurled in the air.

i miss stirring up evil thoughts about my classmates.

i miss ignoring my enemies whenever we meet at the city pavements.

i miss standing on a spot somewhere in the city, looking at everything bumming around against time.

i miss tabaco and its rural stagnation.

i miss the trees.

i miss its fresh, laidback air.

i miss mayon's outline and its ubiquitous image.

i miss the people.

i miss the tabaco landscape. it's just full of memories.

oooh. emo.

shit. i don't even have my high school pictures with me.

[insert: Michael Buble's 'Home']

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