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i lost a subject today.

it was that quick that i barely came up with a rational emotional response like 'shet', 'putek' or 'damn you CRS'. i just opened the 'enlistment' link, and lo and behold, Psych 101 just went missing, zero, zilch, gone. the feeling numbed me, i could not believe i was experiencing a casualty. i have BECOME a casualty of this rotten, underfunded system. after so much effort and time praying to the ehavens and clicking stuffs just to get that subject, it's gone. oohh.. would that qualify as emo? wahahah! screw them.

it's not that dramatic, irritating actually. my initial response was to text my adviser [close kasi kami]. i asked him what happened, how come the earth was conspiring against me, how come they were oppressing and hurting the feelings of an unknowing freshie.

kuya adviser: you should have gone to psych department for your post-advising. since you did not show up, we cancelled your psychology subjects.

now that's a good reason. oh yeaahh, i am a delinquent psych freshie, i am a no-show at psych stuffs and i prefer to be un-'psychish' for the mean time. i didn't know that. bummer. so now i need to face the advising committee with a very good reason.

me: uhm..sir/mesdames, it has come to my attention, much to the fulfillment of my intellectual wants and curiosities, that this social scientific path i chose, psychology, has this self-centric doctrine which is rather excluding and oblivious in nature. i believe, and it is upon my principle to choose a field of intellectual growth where i must be exposed and oriented by truth and the whole expanse of it. i regret to say that psychology has hidden me from other aspects of our existence, like society, social networks and man as a social being. so the problem, sirs and mesdames, is with the field, not with me alone. but i assure you this is no more than a passing judgment. no, i have not yet studied psychology under you, and so i am waiting for the time when you will provide me with the idealisms that shall erase this presumption of mine regarding psychology. after all, i have chosen this field over all the others i could have wanted to be in, simply due to the fact that i believe it will teach me things i NEED to know. so, sorry, hindi ko alam na may advising period pala. sorry na po.

well it's a little illogical if the reason why i did not go to advising is because my sociology fancy has been contradicting psychology as my own course. i hope it works though. kuya adviser assured me that the advising committee could be lenient towards me since i am still a goody-good freshie.

they should be. i need that subject BACK. right now!

me: [to myself:ooh. shet. teka. isip akong pose.hmm..ano kaya?..wait! wait!]