so yeah. i was nearly a 1 versus 100 mob member. by nearly, i mean like, 20 meters away from the studio gate. i was there at abs cbn, with the rest of these gameshow-crazed dudes falling in line, as if they had no other life waiting outside the gates. while i, i had four classes, two quizzes and lotsa lotsa readings waiting for me like hell. and so being the O-C that i was, i failed to resist the urge. i quit. and left. and i bid farewell to my iPod video dreams. damn, too bad.

hooray. we won again during the semis for the debate tournament. and just my luck, i was kinda picked as the best speaker the second time around[if only they had prize money for this, i wouldn't ever regret leaving 1 vs 100 again]. the motion was THBT the grand celebration for the UP centennial is unnecessary. well, it was only after the adjudications that we realized we had lots of errors on some of our facts and we fabricated things, hehe. whew. however, like what the adj people said, it was our consistency that made us win..or so they say. sad.

my supposed-to-be-HS-classmate, alee, turned 18 last thursday. and so the artsy cfold girls threw a nice debut party with abundant crepe[?] papers and all those glittery things. i was one of the 18 roses and i had no idea i had to dance the debutant. anyways, it went out well. by the same time the debut was being held, BA and first floor were having their bonding night. when i went there they were doing this weird game where they have to sing and dance stuffs. freaky.

i am still depressed this week. and i am also wondering how come that is the case. i mean, i should be happy right? wait! i AM happy! i'm just..

so depressed.

:-O

reading from another soul's blog, i am honestly freaked out by the fact that i am losing out on details. her blog was like, vivid, describing things like walking through AS, how sad she feels because her hair sucks and practically everything she did for a full 24-hours. horrifying...in a weird way.

it made me realize that i have been very forgetful for the past few months, or perhaps i am just so bland. no, i honestly cannot remember anything chronologically, all i know is that i take a bath always after 9:30am and that i am such a lazy ass to walk to my classes. other than that, i can't remember anything!

anyhoo.

i am kicking off my working-student mode today. [waw..i'm like, a role model to everyone]. jelline and i decided that we desperately need money for such grave reasons, she needs it to alleviate her parents' spending [that's noble], while i need moolah for my most drooled-for iPod. i don't want to BEG for an iPod again, since the laptop thing practically sealed my demanding rights for the next four years. and so here i am, invoking my valor, my principles and my dignity to actually work my neck off for my very very OWN iPod. i'm so proud of myself. [naks!]

we applied for this review center at katips located in a posh condo building. waw. my kind of environment [asa ka UP student]. it made me imagine what my life would have been if i accepted ateneo's scholarship. i would have been dining at TOSH and tossing champagne on the air while feeding caviar to my mini-chihuahua [now that's an overstatement].

going back to what i was talking about. this female..err..human being [sexist!] greeted us when we walked inside. since i was the one who didn't really care if i looked stupid, i started the inquiry:

me: good afternoon. nagha hire pa po ba kayo ng tutors, gusto po sana namin mag-apply if ever.

female person: [looking stern and botoxed] anong year niyo na?

me: first year po.

female person: from what school kayo?

me: we're both from UP Diliman po.

female person: ano courses, ano honors received niyo, san kayo proficient, ano gusto niyo ituro, maganda ba interpersonal skills niyo, sure kayo na kaya niyo tong trabaho, ano pwede niyong schedule, maruno ba kayo mag balance ng time, ano qualifications niyo, maganda ba training niyo nung high school?

me: [weh? eto resume oh, basahin mo kaya]

and so after much inquiry the female person led us into this tiny room with really small cubicles [where one-on-one tutorials were being done] and made us take this test on math, college math, english and science. chicken [yabang!]. except for the fact that i was clueless in trigo. well, i haven't finished math14 yet and i hate nocillado. anyhoo, i guess it turned out well.

i am hoping i get high enough scores so i can teach chemistry- the science i LOOOVE to eat because i find it HOT [by hot i mean, mentally stimulating]. so yeah, i want to teach chemistry more than anything else, also, english and biology, and perhaps high school algebra. or i can teach ANYTHING! provided that in the end i can earn enough for my iPOD!! wahahah!

i was alarmed by the fact that it took me like, three minutesto realize that the graph of y=2 is horizontal, touching y axis at 2. silly me. i feel ashamed. anyways after a full hour of being fed with your typical high school stuff tests, jelline and i were informed that we can know our results by monday. shame. i should have reviewed for that test. this is a very grave matter. the fate of my iPOD depended on that exam! i will burn that building if they do not hire me!

and so now i am looking at myself for the next few weeks as that haggard, persevering, dedicated student upholding moral and socially upright values...fighting the odds..and winning against the world's harsh obstacles. i feel so old already. what the hell.

if only i could steal an iPOD i would!

no! i take that back. honestly.

PS