lately i have been doing things which are kind of 'un-me'. like, uhm, having a pseudo-love life, which is imaginary by the way, thus making it even much worse. my math woes are getting a bit papansin and haggard again, but i have conditioned my 'locus of control' to make me persevere and triumph over the odds of this harsh, super harsh education system.


back to the love life thing, i'm actually letting it go. i realized that i'm only tiring myself whenever i burn my ass meditating, visualizing and praying to the Gods of humanity to give me an effing non-academic feeling. it's also kind of a hassle vandalizing armchairs, walls and CR's [exag] just to pronounce my, ehhr, emotions. warever.


and so here i am, academic, scholastic, intellectual and all, trying to burn my worth in studying applications of trigonometric functions [ehrkehr], promoting jerrie abella, trying to like org life, keeping updated with my corridor life and, basically, trying to live 'single'. what the hell is my problem anyway?


i find it utterly redundant to post pictures on my blog when i already have a very productive multiply site. and so to check out accompanying visual experiences to my happiness college living, just click on my supah delicious multiply account. i really love college life. perhaps this is my one, true love life. ugh. warever again.


i feel like i'm living in way, bigger world. i was egged by another realization lately, i want fulfillment, i mean, a human kind of fulfillment, one that goes beyond mere uno-harvesting and academic brouhahas. i'm growing up, i think i need to go beyond the classroom and roam the world, learn life, give something to people. the world is just, beautiful, college life is much more sensible now. i honestly believe i have better plans now. i think so.


gahd. freaky. i start this post with my bitter-y love life and end it with my life plans, what a bummer.


i will wait, though, but i will no longer be disillusioned.