During days like this one, I am reminded of my high school's system for administering the haggard, unethical periodic examinations. We do it every other day, 4 subjects per day plus some squeezed up random time slot for the science electives. They don't care if you're all drugged up or near insanity for memorizing, no, not studying, but memorizing the stuffs they have been blabbering about like hell. You just take the exam, and may the good Lord pity your mental limitations. And then they tell you they only record your grades, you are the one who makes it.

Whatever.

I have been taking exams left and right for four days now, and I feel so harassed and oppressed and violated and all the other pity-inducing feelings. Sometimes, when I'd suddenly go blank from all the studying, I would get reminded of my old high school self and start wallowing again, because those were the times when you could smell how rotten the path public education is taking. Although now I am at least assured that what I am studying about is actually worth the time, the effort and the drama, I still feel a bit giddy and at the same time, infuriated, that I find myself in this situation.

Giddy because I feel so college and all. Infuriated because I no longer feel that smart anymore. LOL and sigh.

Seriously, i do not know how to end this blog post. I just found some free minutes and started typing, and now I realized I just wanted to wallow about my self-perceived stress. Pretending that there is actually something serious happening with my boring, exam-laden existence.