super psycho(n.) an immensely disturbed individual who is obsessed with ranting, whining, and blabbering about his life. severely unstable and emotionally undefined, a super psycho should always be dealt with at a distance greater than 50 feet and, with some few doses of aspirin.
WHO THE HELL IS SUPER PSYCHO?
Name:Empermeen Mallawee
Nickname:Elp, Elf, Elfer, Elper, Emper, Empermeen, Buknoy, Boknoy, Bok, Mallawee
Age: I am 15. And I mean it.
Address: Honestly?
Favorite Color: Green, Orange
Favorite Food: Rodic's Jumbosilog
Motto in Life: Abolish our selves.
Favorite High School Subject: Biology
Most Hated High School Subject: Values Education
Most Unforgettable Experience: When I abolished my self.
Most Embarrassing Experience: When I abolished my self.
Who is your Crush: My self.
Do you think autograph questions are dumb?: Super.
So why are you answering this?: Why do you care.
Ambition in Life: To be a Super star.
What is Love: Love is what you say when 'horny' doesn't sound right.
If you were a deodorant scent, what would you be?: Natural Scent.
Your film biopic's title would be: E-pal
One word that best describes you: Magnificent.
What can you say about PGMA?: She has a mole on her face.
How about Josepha Estrada?:His stomach is really big.
How about Angel Locsin?:Her face looks too small.
Your alter ego's name is: Kokey
Dedication: World Peace.
Any Last Words?: Rrrawwrr.I'M EVERYWHERE!
We're Just Friends...ter
Yahoo Me, Yahoo You
GIMME MORE! MORE...BLOGS
Allan Habon
Riley Palanca
Aio Arzadon
Cess Carlos
Leya Sumbeling MY FANS SAY THAT...
A HISTORY OF PSYCHOSIS
Nickname:Elp, Elf, Elfer, Elper, Emper, Empermeen, Buknoy, Boknoy, Bok, Mallawee
Age: I am 15. And I mean it.
Address: Honestly?
Favorite Color: Green, Orange
Favorite Food: Rodic's Jumbosilog
Motto in Life: Abolish our selves.
Favorite High School Subject: Biology
Most Hated High School Subject: Values Education
Most Unforgettable Experience: When I abolished my self.
Most Embarrassing Experience: When I abolished my self.
Who is your Crush: My self.
Do you think autograph questions are dumb?: Super.
So why are you answering this?: Why do you care.
Ambition in Life: To be a Super star.
What is Love: Love is what you say when 'horny' doesn't sound right.
If you were a deodorant scent, what would you be?: Natural Scent.
Your film biopic's title would be: E-pal
One word that best describes you: Magnificent.
What can you say about PGMA?: She has a mole on her face.
How about Josepha Estrada?:His stomach is really big.
How about Angel Locsin?:Her face looks too small.
Your alter ego's name is: Kokey
Dedication: World Peace.
Any Last Words?: Rrrawwrr.
We're Just Friends...ter
Yahoo Me, Yahoo You
Allan Habon
Riley Palanca
Aio Arzadon
Cess Carlos
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Waiting for March:
i am drowning in time
i. prelude to hysteria
i remember the day before Reming came. i was still in pre-ruins Legazpi City, reading the 2002 Kid's Almanac obsessively as five or more nerds were also memorizing some formulae or facts and whatever[s] beside me. it was the Regional Finals of the Super Quiz Bee, and a day before that, i remember killing myself slowly as i tried to memorize eight chapters on the Bilogical Central Dogma as hissing teachers talked loudly inside the highly congested "Teacher's Lounge"[and they call TNHS a public school]. Ms. Bitare was getting impatient as usual because i was having some "short-attention-span-sleepy-braindead-syndrome" attack.
two days before that rigorous review i just arrived in Tabaco from a national competition in Baguio City. so obviously i was still carrying some loads in my head. that was a Saturday. immediately after i arrived i had to grab some Physics book because the Regional Sci-Math Fair would be on the Monday after. it was one of the most palpitating Sundays of my life. i had to squeeze in tons of formulas inside my battered brain, memorize concepts, absorb Paul Hewitt's 800-something pages(condensed though, i'm still human) and, breathe.
the science quiz is actually one of my most favorite contests. i had been joining these things ever since grade 3 and i always targetted getting in the top3(no nationals in elem though, 6th in national in 2nd year). but sadly fatigue got the better of me and i was too tired to exert enough effort to land in the top 3. mr. borromeo said it was okay since he knew i was still tired from everything, so hell, it was so "O-K". at least i got an award, a compensation for my weakness as a typical human being-a 3rd place in Essay Writing in Mathematics. but looking at everything, i didn't have regrets. i knew i did whatever my best was. it just so happens that they're not good enough. i can't have everything.
ii. the Secrets of Baguio
they said everyone was in euphoria upon hearing the news that we won 1st place in parliamentary procedures, national level, in Baguio City. i remember, when Paulo said that, i was sitting next to him as the Victory Liner bus swept past dusty Tarlac roads. i was still sleepy then since we had to wake up early to catch the earliest bus in the morning. the night before that was quite jubilant[since we won], but there were not so good memories either.
i opted to keep quiet about what happened in Baguio because everyone had different perspectives on what was TRUE. but for the sake of giving my side, i must say something.
some teams insisted that we did not deserve the 1st place. duh, like i care whatever they say. if it was given to us, then fate has dictated that we so deserve it. and in the first place there was no absence of fairness and justice in the judging, we didn't pay anyone and there were no deliberate manipulations in the results. of course, those who feel so bitter would think that they deserve the 1st place, logically, every team would think of that. it sustains their confidence, but to tarnish the reputation of others and strip them of what is due to them is shameless, pathetic.
we won because we let ourselves be. we allowed imperfection, but we worked our asses off to make good things out of it. meaning, "diskarte" lang. if we can't keep it clean, we can keep it dirty, but still, with excellence.
so , we won 1st place. we earned it. so deal with it[ galit ba ako?]
iii. waiting for UPCAT, etc.
UPCAT results will be released in late February. and the mere thought already makes my pericardium bloat in excessive, disorderly pumping. i don't know what will happen actually. right now i'm not expecting anything, because i might get frustrated again. my hopes are dim because i am aiming for a degree with one of the highest quota, intarmed. and i couldn't even think of a decent alternative to that course that i actually want, well, MBB, but unfortunately i had a different mindset when i filled out my application form, so i took Psycho[partly because i want to understand my messed up subconscious]. so my hopes are low but my back up plans are getting more stringent. you see, i must comfort myself extensively if i fail intarmed.at least if i do fail, i have a greener* campus if i pass Diliman.
*literally and figuratively.
the truth is i am freaking out. i am setting my sight only to UP. so if i fail i am sure i'll end up somewhere i may never, ever like.
meanwhile, ACET results are out in January. another frustration of mine is my ADMU course, bs chem/materials science eng'g. if i knew better i would have taken management engineering, like JK. anyway i don't think about these things much, ADMU will always be my second choice for my tertiary education. we're not filthy rich and i don't want to go to school with classmates bragging about how much they can squeeze into their pockets. i remember taking the ACET in Oct with daryl. we were in the same room and i could still recall the essay part. i was in my O.C mode.kawawang essay yun. highly congested.hehe.and another was the limited time for each area of study. they say it was sweat-inducing. but i really thought it was quite fun. parang karera.
DLSUCET was the easier test[compared to ACET]. back then i had so little respect to the university[because of my maroon brother], but now i am having some considerations since i took a good course upon application. bs econ and bs accountancy, double degree. which is the best path towards my other dream of being a corporate lawyer [the other one is being a neurosurgeon]. but i don't like the environment in DLSU, i think it's not how i like my academic environment to be. it's not so full of neurons[according to a friend]. especially now that i see college as the opportunity to get my brains working 24/7.walang pahingahan na ito.
by the way, for the sake of surviving[in case], i applied for a scholarship in ADMU and DLSU. because we're so poor.wahaha. the statement shifts me back again in time. i remember, i submitted my application for scholarship with my DLSUCET form the day after Milenyo. my folder actually landed straight on the muddy waters inside the classroom so i had to wipe it dry all morning. it was also the same day i got reprimanded because of the continuing[yep, up to now] postponement of the Science Camp. i am getting really worried how we will ever execute the camp again since the last three months of the school year will most likely focus on acads because Reming robbed us of time.*nostalgia*i bought some toys at Novo*
BUCET results will be released last [i think]. there is no way i'll choose to study in icol University. not that i look down on the school[hey, it's a great school], it's just that, i have been living in Albay for 16 years, i want to grow up. the school[TNHS] is getting anxious with the outcome of BUCET. 2 years ago Carmela topped the exams, and now she's in i-med. 2 years before her, the top 2 places where snared by TNHS alumnae[ate genille and ate louren]. the only entrance tests i have topped were the school DOST test and the creative writing entrance test for PHSA. really dim.my hopes are dim. i'm quite stupid when it comes to these things.quite.
i heard that classes will resume on January 8. only three buildings will be utilized for tnhs' 6000 students[again, with the MWF, TTh schedule]. what a catastrophic school year. we had a volcanic eruption and two typhoons, plus a hoax tsunami. exciting though. but Reming changed everything. i don't think everything will be the same. pity.
i am looking forward to ending the school year. four years of education was intellectually rewarding for me, but nothing much beyond that, except growth and 4 social connections. not that i'm complaining.
i [really]love imperfection.
Labels: ACET, BUCET, DLSUCET, Parliamentary Procedures, Reming, UPCAT
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Saturday, August 12, 2006
Horoscope Nights:
sounds like "scorpio nights"
i. the crystal crap
last tuesday (or was it monday), i caught a glimpse of the rather obscured portion of the philippine daily inquirer (the only newspaper that i read) tan dandanda---the horoscope. it was written by this woman i never bothered knowing because from the looks of it (her colonial sounding name) she's a white(and i hate whites, particularly george bush). hey, where is this post going anyway? so, as i ran my (sleepy) eyes on the grey sheet of paper that smelled oddly of (organic) ink, i read this portion (since i wasn't able to memorize the whole paragraph, and no, i don't have a "memoria fotografica" semi-fotografica perhaps, or maybe i do, maybe not, shit, i don't even know the difference!!what is wrong with this post!): "this month (august) you will feel very tired most of the time. try to overtake the world and heckle gloria macapgal arroyo when she visits the evacuees at tabaco national high school.okay, so the 2nd sentence just jumped off my brain.but gma will really visit our school(for p.r, most probably). and ODDLY enough the horoscope is true. i feel really tired. dead tired.
ii. my infatuation with (the world)
last thursday (august something), i joined the annual (and unending) tagisan ng talino sa wika at panitikan, division level. so prior to that (poorly organized) event, i had too bury my (cute,wahaha) face on bulks and piles of old, smelly books on the works and crafts of the country's best writers. i learned what vocabulario dela lengua tagala meant, and the great difference between pupdoh and dimasalang. but besides the quiz which is relatively more convenient (a chalk and a cardboard, how convenient can it get) i had to write an interpretative essay and, dig this, extemporaneous speech, in filipino. though that isn't really so shocking, heck, what is so shocking with blabbering things in our lingua franca?it's just that, nothing actually. it's not the whole point of this paragraph. the point is, the horoscope is real (and why can't i shake off the surprise?!!). and on the sunday after, was the most important examination of my life, the university of the philippines college admission test. and i need another paragraph to talk about that.
iii.poop cat, poop cat and endorphines
after the contest, we had this (sadist-made long test in english) then the saturday after i had to cram, kill myself, waste my life and rot my soul in studying four years worth of academic knowledge in 15 hours. though i like doing things under pressure, the fact that i didn't give myself a break was rather stupid of me (as a living, breathing human being).fuck, what the hell am i saying, my limewire video updates are interrupting the flow of my thought!!so, the day after (sunday morning), i had to wake up at 4:30am, clean myself, fill myself and hopped in a friend's car that took us in bicol university arcilla hall, college of social science and philosophy. i was abit late so they had to pick me up, which was quite embarassing(though i no longer feel embarassed on aything). the upcat was, well, efficient.stupid description. yes, the upcat was indeed efficient because i felt that the questions really wanted to know how far my intellect can reach. like, arranging sentences, arranging words, or, how about this, knowing how an angle measures in a stupid, damn trapezoid. what good is in a trapezoid anyway?!! i have never ever eaten a trapezoid bread, i have never ever seen a trapezoid rice, i have never even seen a trapezoid bill or a trapezoid coin or a fucking trapezoid house!so why bother my life with knowing what the measures of a trapezoidal angles are!!damn you! so anyway, shit, these people are so noisy, so unappreciative of intellectual expression. the upcat was overall fine, fun, and even worthy of...err..fun. when the upcat was over, i was actually so happy. so upbeat, i loved it. not because it was such a breeze, but because i didn't have to curse myslef (like what happened during the 2nd screeing at pisay).in short, i didn't feel stupid, because i am not.hahaha.at least i never said anything so boastfully delusioned or egotistically perverted or even centrically derailed such as "parang long test" whatever, psycho. my course has a higher quota than yours, psycho.and so, i pray, and pray and pray, that i get in the intarmed program. and if i don't then i read this post in the future, 1st floor or 8th floor, i will jump out the window.
iv. janitor fish dreams
i am getting headaches. this blog site has the lousiest font control buttons that i had ever seen. so, it has been about 10 minutes after i typed the subtitle just above because i peeked at jiki's friendster profile. he is as demented as before and sounded dehydrated. who wouldn't get dehydrated of thought if your in a school like L- S----!!anyway, i won again in the regional level of tagisan ng talino sa wika at panitikan. and good thing that it had a cash prize, some 1500 worth of gift certificate at Gaisano Mall (hey, that is cash because cash is anything used for exchange and accepted by a bank at face value, well, this would not be accepted by any bank, obviously). it made me think about what our school principal told me, that i was already financing myself. because a month ago i also won in a contest with some hefty cash prize.again, my horoscope was correct, because i read that this year would be a financially productive year. so, after winning in the region, and after taking the periodic test (which i toiled for, to which i sacrificed minutes and hours of sleep, for which i ate dozens of chocolates to keep my brain pumping, for which i drank 6 cups of caffeine,,damn the world!!!) now, i have to pack my bags and head off to marikina, where the national will be. oh shit it's 1pm, we will have a practice for the parliamentary procedures(i am the chairman) and yet, the video i am downloading has 3/4 more to go!damn, its raining outside, i don't have any umbrella.okay, so i messed up this post, i couldn't even remember what i was talking about. anyway, knowing things never really guarantees wisdom, for wisdom is knowing what things we should know, so we can understand the underlying truth of everything.
nitimur in vetitium semper, cupimusque negata.
ii. my infatuation with (the world)
last thursday (august something), i joined the annual (and unending) tagisan ng talino sa wika at panitikan, division level. so prior to that (poorly organized) event, i had too bury my (cute,wahaha) face on bulks and piles of old, smelly books on the works and crafts of the country's best writers. i learned what vocabulario dela lengua tagala meant, and the great difference between pupdoh and dimasalang. but besides the quiz which is relatively more convenient (a chalk and a cardboard, how convenient can it get) i had to write an interpretative essay and, dig this, extemporaneous speech, in filipino. though that isn't really so shocking, heck, what is so shocking with blabbering things in our lingua franca?it's just that, nothing actually. it's not the whole point of this paragraph. the point is, the horoscope is real (and why can't i shake off the surprise?!!). and on the sunday after, was the most important examination of my life, the university of the philippines college admission test. and i need another paragraph to talk about that.
iii.poop cat, poop cat and endorphines
after the contest, we had this (sadist-made long test in english) then the saturday after i had to cram, kill myself, waste my life and rot my soul in studying four years worth of academic knowledge in 15 hours. though i like doing things under pressure, the fact that i didn't give myself a break was rather stupid of me (as a living, breathing human being).fuck, what the hell am i saying, my limewire video updates are interrupting the flow of my thought!!so, the day after (sunday morning), i had to wake up at 4:30am, clean myself, fill myself and hopped in a friend's car that took us in bicol university arcilla hall, college of social science and philosophy. i was abit late so they had to pick me up, which was quite embarassing(though i no longer feel embarassed on aything). the upcat was, well, efficient.stupid description. yes, the upcat was indeed efficient because i felt that the questions really wanted to know how far my intellect can reach. like, arranging sentences, arranging words, or, how about this, knowing how an angle measures in a stupid, damn trapezoid. what good is in a trapezoid anyway?!! i have never ever eaten a trapezoid bread, i have never ever seen a trapezoid rice, i have never even seen a trapezoid bill or a trapezoid coin or a fucking trapezoid house!so why bother my life with knowing what the measures of a trapezoidal angles are!!damn you! so anyway, shit, these people are so noisy, so unappreciative of intellectual expression. the upcat was overall fine, fun, and even worthy of...err..fun. when the upcat was over, i was actually so happy. so upbeat, i loved it. not because it was such a breeze, but because i didn't have to curse myslef (like what happened during the 2nd screeing at pisay).in short, i didn't feel stupid, because i am not.hahaha.at least i never said anything so boastfully delusioned or egotistically perverted or even centrically derailed such as "parang long test" whatever, psycho. my course has a higher quota than yours, psycho.and so, i pray, and pray and pray, that i get in the intarmed program. and if i don't then i read this post in the future, 1st floor or 8th floor, i will jump out the window.
iv. janitor fish dreams
i am getting headaches. this blog site has the lousiest font control buttons that i had ever seen. so, it has been about 10 minutes after i typed the subtitle just above because i peeked at jiki's friendster profile. he is as demented as before and sounded dehydrated. who wouldn't get dehydrated of thought if your in a school like L- S----!!anyway, i won again in the regional level of tagisan ng talino sa wika at panitikan. and good thing that it had a cash prize, some 1500 worth of gift certificate at Gaisano Mall (hey, that is cash because cash is anything used for exchange and accepted by a bank at face value, well, this would not be accepted by any bank, obviously). it made me think about what our school principal told me, that i was already financing myself. because a month ago i also won in a contest with some hefty cash prize.again, my horoscope was correct, because i read that this year would be a financially productive year. so, after winning in the region, and after taking the periodic test (which i toiled for, to which i sacrificed minutes and hours of sleep, for which i ate dozens of chocolates to keep my brain pumping, for which i drank 6 cups of caffeine,,damn the world!!!) now, i have to pack my bags and head off to marikina, where the national will be. oh shit it's 1pm, we will have a practice for the parliamentary procedures(i am the chairman) and yet, the video i am downloading has 3/4 more to go!damn, its raining outside, i don't have any umbrella.okay, so i messed up this post, i couldn't even remember what i was talking about. anyway, knowing things never really guarantees wisdom, for wisdom is knowing what things we should know, so we can understand the underlying truth of everything.
nitimur in vetitium semper, cupimusque negata.
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